He said, I couldn't keep a man...

Whenever we're together, we never sugarcoat conversations. We always talk about reality but most of the time I let him do the talking else we end up arguing about our different principles in life. When he needs me I am always there yet what else should I expect, he is always the opposite. I can never demand but I have been submissive to his needs. I feel rebellious but I cannot argue anymore.

One day he told me "You could never keep a man.", I am surprised. I thought to myself maybe he's right. I am willing to do everything but I am afraid of commitment. Honestly I am afraid because deep down inside of me I know I am dealing with a very selfish man. When he speaks I get fascinated but I don't trust his words because his eyes tells me that everything's a lie.

There had been other relationship attempts I made but end up comparing them to him. If I cannot deal with this difficult man then maybe I can't deal with any guy at all. Its really hard to determine if this is love or obsession. One thing I'm sure of, I'm stuck of being his property...his very own GEISHA.